In four days I begin Project HOPE.
Let me be completely honest for a second…
I am terrified.
I don’t know what is going to happen.
I don’t know who or what I am going to photograph.
I don’t know who I am going to meet.
This is so out of my comfort zone, so out of character for me, so different than anything I have ever done before.
… but I guess that’s what is exciting about it too, right?
We’ve talked a lot about introvert and extroverts this past month, and in this past month I’ve come to realize and fully accept how extroverted I am. Anna said in her last introvert/extrovert post something I completely and totally agree with…
“Identifying as an introvert or extrovert is not about what you do. It’s about where you draw your energy from.”
I draw my energy from people, by being around other people, by meeting new people, by talking to others, by laughing and getting to know someone. I’m not loud (though my laugh is very loud, I apologize to those who know me), I’m not the center of attention, I’m not the class clown, I’m not a drama queen… But I am an extrovert.
I am a closeted extrovert who has been disguised as an introvert for her entire life, and in four days I get to fly to the other side of the world, meet new people, go to countries where nobody knows me, and I finally get to be myself… I finally get to be completely and totally Karen.
And you know what?
That is scary.
But in four days… I have a chance to SHOW who I am… to TELL my story… and that is amazing. It is a blessing. It is fantastic. It is terrifying.
Because being a closeted extrovert is my comfort zone.
I am completely comfortable in running my small photography business, photographing weddings and portraits, just getting by paying my bills, letting the dogs out a thousand times a day, going to Bible study every week, watching my TV shows, and writing Show & Tell posts every other night.
… but for me, that’s not fully living life.
That’s not being Karen.
That’s settling for a comfort zone that I am uncomfortable in.
Life begins at the end of your comfort zone.
So, I guess you can say my life begins in four days.
Have you began your life, or are you stuck in an uncomfortable comfort zone?